this is 30 minutes before my birthday is over. after all the surprises, when I had my shower to have a rest, I had this idea of writing a note, first for my friends, then for the people, and finally for myself.
what I have forgotten today: to pray before my lunch and to make a wish before my birthday cake (a real surprised one). so to compensate for the lost, I would like to share my birthday wish when I had my shower.
I have lost the feeling of love for a while, not the meaning of what you understand "love", but in my definition. I could try to explain this is a feeling of loving people, all the people, as Jesus did. Since most of the time I am impatient to people, thinking about the bad things about people instead of the good things about people. When I hate people, I hate even myself. I was constantly annoyed by people, why they break my peace, I thought I was so peaceful in summer holiday just by observing the nature, and I thought I am a better person when I am alone...
BUT I am wrong! Although I don't know the right way to due with any kind of people, I need people, specially my friends. When I receive a call, an email from a long lost friend, I can feel that I wanted to tell what happened most recently and also everything happened since our last contact. This feeling is so strange, I gained the power to love people from my friends, from the people who care me. One fact about love that I realised is: I can not generate love but only transfer it.
Therefore, in this last 8 minutes before my birthday is over, I wanted to pray for my birthday wish: I pray that I receive more love so I know how to love, I pray that more angels will come closer and devils run away, I don't think I can be a hero that can love the world like Jesus, BUT I would like learn how to trust like Mary, who follow God's plan in every way she did, humbly, faithfully, gently... (the last one was actually my christmas wish this year)
Finally, I really would like to pray for all my friends, who remember me, care me, love me in every way you do, all the little surprises are bringing me great great meanings...
THANK YOU SOOOOO MUCH... and this is 12:00am and I am safe from any surprises, well, one last thing to change, don't get too emotional, if you know what I mean for those who know me long enough :):):)
"don't think too much", yes I know :P
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